In the throes of anguish and paranoia, Machine Gun Kelly was about to commit suicide while on the phone with girlfriend Megan Fox. The episode convinced him to quit drugs.
The singer tells it in the documentary Life in Pink (in the US on Hulu). The episode took place after the disappearance of his father, who died in July 2020, when Fox was in Bulgaria to shoot a film.
“I did not leave the room,” explains in the documentary Machine Gun Kelly, real name Colson Baker. “I started to get really dark. I was so paranoid that I thought someone would come and kill me. ‘
Because of this fear, he began to sleep with a rifle by the side of the bed. “Until one day I freaked out. I called Megan and told her, “You’re not here for me.” I freaked out. I put the barrel of the gun in my mouth. I was screaming into the phone with the barrel in my mouth. While I was loading it, the rifle jammed. There was dead silence on the other side of the phone. It was at that moment that I began to understand that something was wrong. “
Later, under the guidance of Fox and his 12-year-old daughter who told him they no longer want to “talk to you through a veil”, Machine Gun Kelly developed the idea of ”having to give up drugs.” He then threw himself into the music, spending 15 or more hours a day in the studio. The obsessive desire to prove that the success of his 2020 pop-punk record Tickets to My Downfall it hadn’t been a coincidence, and that he would have retorted it with Mainstream Sellouthe started to get heavy, pushing away the people who were close to him.
“I became addicted to a new drug: work,” says Baker. “It was as if I had dug a hole myself a little too deep and felt the need to get out of it to dedicate myself to the really important things.”